In an honest interview with GQ, Justin Drew Bieber spares no detail as he touched on many of the deeper effects of life in the limelight –
• The bad: the shame from past mistakes that he had to learn from in a very public manner.
• The ugly: having security guards sneak into his bedroom in the middle of the night to check his pulse to make sure he was still alive as he slowly became reliant on drugs.
• And, his redemption: finding solace in his faith and his marriage.
Fans of the 27-year-old Canadian singer-songwriter would know that many attribute his escape from the darkness of his own personal struggles to his relationship with and subsequent marriage to Hailey Baldwin. In fact, the magazine quotes Bieber’s circle as saying that “almost all of them will point toward Hailey as the first piece of his redemption”. Bieber himself seems to acknowledge this, admitting that getting married to Hailey seemed like his calling, the right move in his life.
However, as with all relationships, it wasn’t without its difficulties. Bieber revealed that the first year of marriage to Baldwin “was really tough.”
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“The first year of marriage was really tough because there was a lot, going back to the trauma stuff. There was just a lack of trust. There were all these things that you don’t want to admit to the person that you’re with, because it’s scary. You don’t want to scare them off by saying, ‘I’m scared.’ ”
Bieber went on to say that his first year as a husband was far from relaxing, as he found himself “on eggshells” for most of it. The couple got engaged in 2018, just weeks after they got back together following their brief romance years prior and less than half a year after Bieber’s on-again, off-again romance with Selena Gomez ended for good.
On her part, Hailey Baldwin agrees that yes, it wasn’t easy. In an interview with Elle, Baldwin shared that their first year of marriage saw them go “straight into figuring out the hard stuff” following Bieber’s diagnosis with Lyme disease.
“When we first got married, we were just figuring out our life together. [Justin] was really sick. And it was hard because everybody from the outside was being super mean and judgmental, saying he looked like he was on drugs, saying how unhealthy he looked, when in truth, he was not healthy and we didn’t know why. It was months of me being a new wife trying to help him figure out what was wrong and what was going on.”
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Now, Bieber is healthy – emotionally, physically and spiritually. His marriage is also going strong, as he says:
“We’re just creating these moments for us as a couple, as a family, that we’re building these memories. And it’s beautiful that we have that to look forward to. Before, I didn’t have that to look forward to in my life. My home life was unstable. Like, my home life was not existing. I didn’t have a significant other. I didn’t have someone to love. I didn’t have someone to pour into. But now I have that.”
And, one important lesson that Bieber has taken from his life is that…
“We’re all miracles, really. You know, the fact that you are here and you made it through all the stuff that you’ve been through, you know […] But you are here. And that’s a miracle. You can do it. You are valuable. Whatever you are saying about yourself or believing about yourself is not necessarily true. It’s just not.”
Don’t you just love it when people grow through what they go through? We can’t help but be proud of Bieber for making it through all that darkness, and the pair for finding peace in themselves and each other!
*Cover image credit: @justinbieber as photographed by @490tx